My Spooktacular Baby Boy, Jeremy

Not feeling well my darling boy.  Then, let's get better!

Today is your day and I have waited all year for this day....me, like you have been counting down the days.....Halloween was always one of my favorite times of years, that my reason is why you born to me the day before!

Don't ever think for one minute that I am not with you....Althought you cannot see me, or hold my hand, trust me when I say, I see you and my hand is in  yours every single minute of every single day.

I am the wind in the air, I am the sun in your eyes, I am the rain in the puddles that you play in.  I am the snow that you so dearly enjoy.

Jeremy, my wish for you today is enjoy your Birthday my son.....Seven years old, so precious, priceless, close your eyes for one moment....I bet you see me, I see you, you love me, I love you, you have my mom, she has me....That's all that matters...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...YOU DA MAN AND I LOVE YOU

YOUR MOMMY IN HEAVEN XOXOXOXOXOXO

 Happy Halloween Angie

2008 Your 5th that your not with us!

Love Nanny, Mommy(middle) & Auntie Tina

From Denise Kneale Mom to James and Daniel

hApPy HaLlOwEeN mOmMy.

I lOvE yOu! LoVe JeReMy xoxo

Angie Halloween was one of your favorite times of the year. Your son, Jeremy was born the day before. You celebrated his birthday and halloween together. It's a fun time for us still, but there are so many memories and heart aches that go come and go at this time of the year.

Your death, Oct 9th, Jeremy's birthday Oct 30th, Halloween Oct. 31st

From Claudia, Mom to Rocky Lindley's

Angie this was Rocky's favorite time of the year also, so party hard with him and all your Angel Friends!

This is Angie, her brothers and her Dad. We were craving punkins for Halloween. Angie loved this time of the year. She loved dressing up as a child and she loved it as a Mother. You see her son was born the day before Halloween. So we all know if she didn't pass away especially in October she would still be here doing this with her son and celebrating his 7th birthday

Love your Mom

XOXO

From Yvonne, fiance to Douglas Sager

From Dianne, Mom to Nicholas White!

From Garnet Mom to Julia Hadcock

From the Family of William Myers

From Yvonne Fiance to Doug Sager

From Angela, daughter to Linda Taylor

From Melissa daughter to Irene and Reene Eiler

ANGIE'S 4TH ANGEL DATE

OCTOBER 9 2008

I HATE THIS DATE AND ALWAYS WILL

IT'S JUST NOT FAIR

WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DIE

SHE HAD SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR

I CAN'T HELP MISSING HER

BECAUSE I CAN'T MAKE MY HEART

STOP THINKING AND WANTING HER!

I DO HAVE TO SAY THAT THE LONG

DARK HOLE I FELT 4 YRS AGO

HAS GONE...THE PAIN ISN'T AS HARD

AND THE DAYS AND NIGHTS PASS

EASIER...BUT THE WHY WILL NEVER

CHANGE...AND NEVER WILL I STOP

MENTIONING HER NAME!

From Tina Grayson, Mom to Angel Micheal Grayson, thank you so much

From Cheryl Radford, Mom to Jeremy Radford, thank you so much it's beautiful

From the Family of William Myers

From Brent Bowden's Special Mom

thank you Denise Miller daughter to Charlotte Luce

ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE, ANGIE,

A tribute to my Granddaughter

who's been gone from me for

four years!

Me and you in 1981...on your Humpty Dumpty toy box

This is one of my favorite pictures of you Angie. You were 6 years old. You always had beautiful big eyes. Heck you were perfect!!!

Your graduation Angie...you did it even though you hated school. You went back and got your diploma.

May 2002, your first Mother's Day...you spent with us at Auntie Tina's and Uncle Steve's  You got a kick out of Jeremy putting his fingers into the Mother's Day Cake...never did you get angry with him. Your patience with him was unbelievable.

Nanny and your Mom. I can only hope you hold us in your memory Angie, as one day we will be with you again and I hope you will have the memories... the ones we treasure... of our life with you.

So sad not to be with you each and every day Angie, but I'm sending all my love to you everyday and everynight.

Will you please try and visit me in my dreams...in four years I've only dreamt of you once...once is never enough...please, please, please visit me.

Love your Nanny

xoxox

Thank you Grandma Rose, grandmother to Brittany Syfert

This is our story of our precious

My beautiful and precious daughter died in a tragic car accident on October 9th 2004! She was born on February 24 1980. She died on impact at the young age of 24 years old.

It is still so hard to think of Angie as gone. It's not fair, she was so nice, so loveable, so caring, so special, she was a MOTHER!

She left behind her little boy whom she adored. He was her life. Her son, Jeremy loved his Mommy with all his heart. He worshiped her. He turned three years old, three weeks after her passing.

Jeremy went through a lot of emotional ups and downs. He was too young to understand death. He wanted to know why Mommy wasn't coming home. He wanted to go to his Mommy's house. She never left him and didn't come back, so how was he suppose to understand what was happening .

 (Angie, Jeremy in yellow visiting his friend Taylor at her house)

He was staying at my house most of the time, and he would wake up at night screaming for her. He would cry for hours and yelling I want my Mommy to come home, I want her NOW! It was pure hell, because I had to stay calm and comfort him, yet I wanted the same thing. I WANTED MY DAUGHTER BACK!

Mommy and Angie

She was Daddy's girl and they had a very special connection. They were like two peas in a pod! They adored and respected each other so much. Angie's Dad had two heart attacks and her fear whenever he wasn't feeling well, was that he wouldn't be there to walk her down the isle when she got married. That was her dream!

Daddy and Angie

Angie was blessed with two very loving and caring brothers. Ricky  was only 11 months older than her. Actually they were both the same age for five days every year! She loved that, she would tease him and say things like ha ha your not older than me now!

Angie and Ricky

Angie and I were dyeing Eggs for Easter. We asked Ricky if he wanted to help and he said "come on don't tell me you guys still do this?" Well of course Angie and I always continued to do besides we had to show Jeremy tradition. The next thing we no Ricky starts to do one and he continued until they were all done! Angie had a good laugh, but enjoyed doing this with her bro again.

Her younger brother Randy had mostly all the same friends she did. They hung out and liked to party together!

Angie and Randy

Angie loved this picture because she was the maid of honor at her friends wedding...yes maid of honor in a suit, she didn't tell her brother Randy what she was wearing and he showed up in a suit, sun glasses and a hat...Amazing...they were both so shocked!

The three of them loved each other from day one. They never fought with each other as children. They were so darling!

Randy, Angie and Ricky 1985

Angie's nickname was punkie, her Dad started calling her that at a very young age and it stuck!

TWO VERY SPECIAL PEOPLE IN ANGIE'S LIFE

HER NANNY AND GRANDPY

LOUISE AND DAVID

From day one Angie was blessed to have her Nanny and Grandpy by her side. They are the best people any child or grandchild could have. Here they are with Angie on her first b-day. She had a cast on her leg to help her celebrate her big day! Angie didn't know what the word "stop" meant. She could run, hop, jump and fall from ten months of age. That's when she started to walk..but she wasn't happy with just walking. Angie always like speed and fast things. The faster, the higher, the happier she was.

No matter what celebration or place we went Nanny and Grandpy was usually with us. We are a very close nit family. Angie is sitting on her Nanny's lap as she was trying to open presents from their 25th Wedding Anniversary!

Angie was a Nanny's girl. She was the first granddaughter to be born into our family. My Mom loves girls and she just spoiled the heck out of Angie. So much love, hugs, vacations, gifts, letter...everything. Don't get me wrong she adored her only other grandchild at the time Ricky and spoiled him terrible too, but girls are just a little more cuddly and affectionate. Angie always wanted her Nanny!

Angie's Nanny has had a very hard time with her passing and she just doesn't deal with it to much. She is always writting candles to Angie and all her Angel friends. The other day I was going through some papers and this letter (below) fall out of a folder. I have not seen this letter since Angie got it in 1984. She was 4 1/2 years old.

Angie kept this letter amongst her stuff. Her Nanny told her she was going to be a lovely lady and wanted her to always stay close to her. She concludes with "whether we are near or miles apart you are always close to my heart"

Angie did always stay close to her Grandparents. Here she is the summer she passed making the garden wall for her Grandparents garden. Of course Nanny, now Great Nanny is playing with Jeremy.

I think this can make us understand the depth of Nanny's love for Angie. I wish I could take the pain and hurt away for my Mom but I can't. As long as she holds on to the faith and promise of us being together again one day...FOREVER...she should be able to live and laugh in all the special memories Angie composed with her.

I love you Mom and Dad and I thank you for loving my children like you do!

This is my Mom kneeling and because of her being the best Mother, I was a fantatic Mom with Angie, and because of the two of us Angie was the perfect Mother to her son Jeremy!

We will continue to make Jeremy's life happy and full of exciting new things. His foundation came from the upbringing of Angie. The three years she dedicated to him has forumed him into a loving, caring and wonderful person.

Thank you Angie for being in our lives, God granted us all the best gift when he lent you to us for the wonderful time you were here, I know I will be with you again one day, and life will continue for us all.

I love you bebe girl!

A special Mother she was to her only son Jeremy. She shared three Mother's Day with him. Her first Mother's Day she went to her Auntie Tina's in Toronto with her son Jeremy & her Grandparents, Dave & Louise xoxoxox

Angie loving the fact that Jeremy put his hand in her Mother's Day Cake! Angie never lost her patience or got upset with Jeremy know matter what he did.

All children were drawn to Angie like a magnic. She had a charm and a friendly way with them.

On her 3rd and last Mother's Day I didn't get any pictures because she wanted to stay in her town with Jeremy and spend the entire day with him doing fun things.

She took him to the park in the morning and someone went there and kick, slapped, pulled her hair & beat on her all the way down three roads until she got to someones house for help. She was afraid to go to her own place. She had Jeremy in her arms protecting him. Police were called and charges pressed but she died before she could get to court.

Angie didn't always have a perfect life, she was in a relationship that conflicted with her. Angie tried very hard to hide a lot of her pain and if she didn't share her dark secerts with you, you would never have known anything could ever be wrong in her life.

Not only is the 9th of October a hard day for us, but Mother's Day really brings back bad memories, of a day that she should have gotten to treasure the way she wanted.

Jeremy just after Angie gave birth. 4lbs 7 oz.

 To MY DAD....THE BEST DAD in the whole wide world on his Birthday. Watching over you everyday Daddy from heaven above, celebrating your day with you always, Your punkin forever, xoxox

Angie at twenty four years old

Angie's 18th b-day

In our mind and hearts you will always be twenty four. We remember the young and viberate woman you were. In your death we don't get to see you grow old. Forever beautiful to all your family.

WE LOVE YOU!